You Had Time

>> May 24, 2014

You like to think that the decisions you’ve made today will not manifest as regrets tomorrow. You hope, for the most part, that these numerous decisions made everyday – some big, some small, some momentous, and some painfully mundane- will not appear ridiculous in hindsight, ten days down the lane, or ten years. More often than not, sooner or later, you can always tell- and if you’re not the kind of moron who thinks she has no regrets like every celebrity ever interviewed- you can determine if that decision, all those months or years ago, was the right way to have gone. And if you try just hard enough, you can learn to surrender to the complete helplessness that is regret.

Sometimes, however, with some decisions- you can never tell. You hope, of course, that you did the right thing or you said the right lines- but like that idea that you thought was your best yet but slipped away from memory, you will never know. And while you try to go through life not pondering at length over these decisions- the ones shrouded in ambiguity, the ones on which the verdict is still out- this continuing illusion comes to a grinding halt sometimes and you feel the need to pause, and look back, and ask yourself if you’d made the right decision, if that was, indeed, the right thing to do.  And after you’ve asked yourself these difficult questions and groped for answers which simply do not exist, even as you’ve wondered how life would have turned out otherwise, and imagined all those alternative universes, you’ll come back, defeated, to the present, hoping that you’re not doing it wrong all over again.




7 Comment(s):

3xsoncalvary May 30, 2014 at 7:03 PM  

Some very nice thoughts embedded in this post and it was a pleasure to read. Of course everyone has regrets and you take decisions that may turn out to be the wrong ones, but if you don't take them, you'll never know right? In that sense. It's better to not judge with hindsight, for hindsight and wisdom also come from mistakes. :)

Anonymous,  June 5, 2014 at 7:22 AM  

Alternate. There may exist alternate universes, not alternative. Unless we're talking about entire universes filled with fashio-

*catcalls from the crowd*

Oh, all right. I am the Queen's champion, I alone have sole-

*booing intensifies*

Whatever.

Do not waddle in regret, or consider guilt; for the longer they linger, the quicker they delude.

There's a few varieties of thought that feed off forays into fantasy (ooooh, allit!).

Like our dear friend Bertrand's teapot. Does the teapot exist? No. Can we conceive of it? Yes. Do the 7.2 billion of us spare it a thought? No. Does a handful? Yes. Come, let us be sheep, together.

You know who I am.

"Nkombo! Nkombo, the ship is sinking!"
"K"
"Nkombo, why do you not react? We're going to die!"
"Nah"
"What? Nkombo! Listen to m-OH MY GOD NKOMBO! YOU ARE THE SHIP!"

-brkms.

Defy Death,  June 20, 2014 at 5:35 PM  

Chewing on that dead carcass on your plate will definitely manifest as regret, sooner or later.

Atheist Bot October 28, 2014 at 7:03 PM  

#Christianity did not become a major religion by the quality of its truth, but by the quantity of its violence.

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